.: Jihad :.

..quite a lot of things have been happening lately..

HROH was a great success..i have to admit..the response i felt was overwhelming and all due thanks and appreciation have to be given to all of those who had helped in some way or another..also, jus goes to show that sometimes u can come up with a miracle wif a weeks grace if u are willing enuff..n in this case, we were more than willing( i suppose in some ways)..dapat keluar suria ngan ntu webby pun..hehehe

that aside..had a mini-exco jln raya..kinda fun oso..i think among ourselves its so much easier to jaga tata tertib as compared to when going out wif the rest...i think we tend to be more ourselves when we are among ourselves..yep..so it was fun..well, most of it at least..

then had iap discussion yesterday..oftwhich dragged to a trip to mendaki jus to make a few things clear..but aint nuthin much..jus a small matter..

den had a hari raya trip wif venatoris today..wich was kinda weird..bec sumhow no matter how hard i tried, i jus couldnt bring miself to enjoy it fully without any ill-intent on my part..sumhow i have to admit i didnt like the manipulations behind the scenes just to make certain people happy to their individual likings...this is raya sey..y mus one spoil the mood jus to have things done in yr own preferred way..its supposed to be a spirit of forgiving and giving..sigh..its pretty sad because as much as u want, some ppl dont get the point..forgive me for being a jerk..but i jus wanted a good old jln raya wif no worries and smooth sailing..relek2 kinda thing..but being an exco and all, tends to make others think of you in a different light..and that is plain irritating..jus makes u uncomfy and not be urself

mebbe an underlying reason cud be the fact that i jus want a clean break..when fatigue sets in, emotions tend to overcome the logical side of one instead..i suppose so..but i dont see a break coming till the 11th-18th dec week..bec iap preps are going on the way..

sumtimes i jus feel like shouting at the top of my voice..tearing my hair apart..because i think this is taking a real lot of my time..but then again, jus to remember..

Fa'inna ma'al usri yusroo( Verily with evey hardship there is relief)

so I suppose my jihad continues..whether i like it or not..because this is the path that has been laid on me..as a responsibilty..and as a development for miself..

For we choose what our eyes wish to see..
For only the surface matters sometimes to us..
But remember that the wise look beyond their eyes, their prejudices..
And see people for their true self..and more..
To understand the beauty within...

Peace out..