.: Seems like the battle is far from over :.

Stumbled upon this doa which makes me realize that rezki is in the hands of Allah and that should any obstacles that comes along the way; unto Him and unto Him only shall we seek our help. InsyaAllah.

"Ya Allah! Peliharalah muka kami dengan kesenangan. Dan janganlah Engkau hinakan kami dengan kekurangan sehingga menyebabkan kami meminta rezeki kepada orang-orang yang menuntut rezeki dari-Mu, dan sehingga kami meminta belas ihsan dari orang yang jahat, dan sehingga kami sibuk memuji orang yang akan memberi kami, dan sehingga kami diuji dengan mencela orang yang menahan kami dari pemberiannya, sedangkan Engkau disebalik itu semua yang paling layak untuk memberi dan menahan.

Ya Allah! Seperti mana Engkau pelihara wajah kami daripada sujud kecuali bagiMu, maka peliharalahnya dari meminta hajat yang selain dari Engkau, dengan kemurahan-Mu, kelebihan-Mu, dan rahmat-Mu, wahai Yang Maha Penyayang, wahai Yang Maha Penyayang. Berilah kami kemampuan tidak bergantung kepada orang lain, selain Engkau, dengan kurnia-Mu."

-Oleh Habib Ali bin Hussain Al-Attas

Still finding my feet, and what better way to find it than in the sisi of Allah swt..in HIS Remembrance..

My feelings are mixed, while I do understand that its sthing that sumone has to come 2 the front to do..im oreadie feeling the weight of this responsibility on mi shoulders..

With all due respect, the one fact that saddens me most is the reluctance of ppl to step up and want to make a difference i guess..its either I dunno that there are ppl who wish to make this step or mebbe im jus getting blind..its sad bec stimes it jus reflects that no matter who u put as leaders, the stigma of that tag as an executive committee member jus turns ppl off i guess..its sad bec a leader is nuthin w/o his/her ppl..

there is never any lack of potential..jus lack of trying i suppose..stimes, the problem wif our masyarakat is that it never bothers to try in the first place, it gives up b4 hand..

i dun wanna bring miself down animore..haha, actually there are a lot more things occupying my mind..i guess for this responsiblity that i have, i cannot afford to bring miself down too many times as like it or not, ppl will still look up to the amir as a source of strength and guidance..

well, stimes, believing is all that one has..this Uan i mean..:p..N if it has served me this well so far, then I believe it still will..I know Allah swt will nvr abandon HIS servant who believes in HIM..

Grant me peace..pls