.: Ledang survivor : Over the top :.

it was a good experience..fullstop..hehe..of course, cant deny that i learnt many things along the way..

have to admit that my first encounter with the kids wasnt exactly that very wonderful..to the point that din(one of the kids) came up to me n said " eh abang, kenapa step anti-social je? berbual ah sikit.." ..yep, i gotta admit that i was keeping very much in my small social circle n not actually engaging them as much as Rizal was..prob it was an after-effect when i realised how short-handed i was(n that Rizal came late)..of course, i havent actually engaged this kinda kids of dis age n group before..so i guess i took quite a lot of time to warm up to them..n first phase was definitely tiring..bec though i went up ledang b4, i came up on an easier route from the kota tinggi side the last time..the up n downs of the trail n the (blardy) tent was realli getting on mi head(n heart i tink..)

of which i actually told miself aft a very difficult first nite.."Ya Allah, if I am not gd enuff to change all of dem, then at least let me change a few"..n Alhamdulillah, with a better mindset, I had it going for the 2nd phase of the trip..which was the climb to the summit from the base camp..

i started realising that i was too nice..so i became the guy barking orders..lol..to tink that this kids cud actually drink frm my bottle, not bother where it ended up, n not actually bothering to leave me some..n that realli made mi day..

niwaes..the nxt day, started to get sum kinda respect n response frm dem..n managed to actually talk to them, get a few word here n there..at least din,adib,rafi,taufiq,hafiz,shazmi,hazmi,rifa'e,shahdinar..n they were actually the ones who motivated rizal n me on de way up..bec we were both huffing n puffing due to our loads..while they were sprinting up with practically nthin much..of course, i became a jerk n woke dem up at 12 midnite bec they left the mess tins uncleaned aft dinner..which realli got me mad..n rizal wasnt ard, so u cant blame me rite? i had to be the bad guy aft all :(

but it was gd..bec suddenly, the next day, almost everyone woke up their blardy ideas n decided to work together..they were a few heated exchanges oftwhich i had to become a mediator..but all in all, the environment was much better on the last day,,n of cos, i became an upgraded jerk by refusing to bring their tents for them..lol..but i did it for a purpose, bec i wanted them to understand how harsh it was for me..ambik korang ubat..

but all in all..i felt heartened in de end..wen i saw nar actually help puring water for the rest of the grp for the final lunch..n to tink that nar was one of the more self-centred guys ard..i guess that alone was quite an accomplishment to me..of the time wen i toked to nar n got him tinkin on his own behaviour..haha, that sotong jerangkong..oops :p

niwaes, i felt that i appreciated a lot of wat i have in mi life rite now aft this trip..among all, the sight of encik bakhtiar panting on the stretcher n being attended to by nizar wud b sthin that i wud keep in me forever..its amazing how i actually valued my own life at that point of time, n how i silently prayed to Allah that HE Most Wise, wud decide whether HE shud take his life or wait for another time as his family wud need him more..

n of course..i began to appreciate my family more..despite certain differences that we have, i was kinda certain that i shud not have been so down..bec here, in front of my own eyes, were ppl who were in much more werse condition that wat i was..n ya, i guess i need to learn to b grateful for all that i have.. :)

i oso learnt a lot from the other peeps in the camp..esp the senior ones like rizal n hafiedzul, n come to tink of it, i realised that in their process of becoming an exco, each one of dem actually took up the responsibility to further deveop themselves in many means possible..which is actually more than wat i can say for miself...im realli way off them.. :P so i cant continue for one more yr ok?

all in all, it was nice relieving experience too i felt..away from spore for a while..n its stresses..to tink that tmrw is oreadie mock kids camp..n sat being an ITC meet(which sumhow the rest magically disappear)..but all in all, life has to go on...brrr..

Peace out..