.: Saddened :.

sometimes u jus feel like giving up..although deep inside, u know its not the right thing to do..but well, some whisperings in the ear keeps on poking u in that direction..

sometimes i wonder wat it feels like to be a Muslim convert..probably shunned by his own family..no one to accomplany him in his jihad other than his own Muslim colleagues..probably left alone in his own world by his own blood to break him down slowly..in hopes that he will abandon his faith..

i guess im at that crossroads now..n the only thing that i can hold on to nowadaes is Allah swt alone..I've lost faith in my parents and almost anithin else..saddened that im left in this world alone again..sigh..

its sad bec i used to respect my mum a lot..but aft wat happened yesterday, i cant help but feel very sad for wat she had done to me...n to think that Rasulullah s.a.w once said "Syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu"..sincerely speaking, I dont even know wat to do now abt this..

its sad..but well, life has to go on.I pray that Allah swt grants me the knowledge n strength to walk thru this..

Peace out...