.: For the love of God, Im not giving up.. :.

jus wanna recap on wat happened over the past few daes...

thurs was kinda ok..actually understood bio,biochem which is kinda rare in my case..all in all, it didnt strain me too much..special tks to rachmat for keeping me company over biochem lect when i was on the verge of sleeping by his continous asking of qns which got me thinkin..ahahah..

niwaes..i was fasting..with many reasons to do so..n i had oreadie planned to go to a kuliah at perdaus wif pipis n widz...n anybody else who wanted to for that matter...

but jus as i finished my last lesson..got news from mum that dad went to hospital..he was still in pain somehow or another as it went on and off at times..his reluctance to eat cud perhaps be another reason to why his condition got aggravated...

kinda contemplated not going to perdaus at that point..bec i was worried sick for dad..but when i thought abt it, even if i went, there was nothin much i cud do to help out...i wasnt a doctor aft all..so aft much indecision,i decided to go wif my plans n follow pipis..though i knew my mind was troubled..i felt it best that i unplugged for a while..

n all in all i was kinda glad that i did so..

had a peaceful break fast..jus soltitude wif pipis..talk abt other issues which was gd to draw my attention elsewhere..met radhi who looked like he jus woke up..but ya, i needed time to unwind..went 4 perdaus...n found it very interesting..was abt Saiyidina Ali r.a...a leader who led bec he had to..for the sake of the religion..opened my eyes of how sumtimes ppl need to do wat they have to do..not jus bec they wanna do it..out of the sake of the betterment of the community..kinda reminded me of my behaviour b4..

ard midway of the lect, got call from mum that dad was finally alright..n at that point of time, i really breathed a sigh of relief...the past few days were particular testing for me i have to admit..n at that times, i jus felt like giving up with the amt of things i needed to catch up with..

now that one is down..hopefully can better concentrate..insya'Allah..

n went home frm bt gombak..saw ct online..chatted wif her 4 a while..tanye khabar je..nuthin much..like i said alwaes..It has alwaes been in HIS hands..not mine..

yup..so all in all..was glad at the end of the day..albeit it was trying..i really learnt a lot among other things...esp from the kuliah..

fri was good..productive for one thing..studied aft subuh albeit slowly..at least dapat jugak cover carbohydrates..then went solat juma'at..n went to muis wif pipis again..pasal hari raya gathering..

so many lessons learnt..a test from HIM to make me realise many many things..among others..on areas i shud develop miself..

For im still learning..jus like u are..
So walk with me..share my burden..
For we are brothers..united for the same reason..
And one wif the same niat..
For The Almighty..we will Jihad..

Peace out.. i will learn...one day..