.: Faith in oneself, To thine ownself be true :.

Faith..

A simple four-letter word that holds so many meanings..yet i feel misunderstood in many times..

truly..sincerely..i've never accepted the post to b mine...i've alwaes felt " why does it have 2 b me?Why not that guy over there?"

despite all my fren's encouragements..praises..belief in me..i still didnt budge..still cudnt accept that i was gd enuff..if i had that faith in miself..

i tried..i realli did..2 find answers i asked..i enquired..i tried to understand..but i got nowhere..4 i was still adamant to my own beliefs no matter wat..too stubborn to accept otherwise..

but todae changed many things in me..Life surprises u in the unlikeliest moments..

i went 4 a kuliah aft maghrib wif pis n khairiah..jus u noe..tagging along..wanna see how its like..The topic : The 2nd caliph Saiyidina Umar r.a

n i was touched..n finally sumthing got thru this thick skull of mine..

Umar wasnt the popular candidate 2 b the 2nd caliph..yet..when he was chosen..he accepted the post despite his unpopularity..despite his inexperience in leadership(as he came frm a small tribe)..despite many obstacles..yet Umar had a very successful reign as khalifah

y u may ask?

bec he stayed true..he stayed true that he led in servitude to Allah s.w.t...He understood the basics..the true spirit of Islam..n was willin to put away traditions if they were in oppposition to Islam itself..tegas person he is..he stood by justice n equality..yet stayed true to his niat of doing everything 4 the ONE only..

n finally i understand..

n finally i cud accept..that no matter who i was b4..no matter how inexperienced i m..as long as i have a true niat..n wif proper knowledge..wif belief that HE will guide me wif HIS hidayah..insya'Allah..it will turn out fine...:)

i made my choice then..but it is only now that i truly believe..

i found faith in miself...finally..

Alhamdulillah..

Peace out..