.: Venatoris : Seek and Ye Shall Find..U live in my heart 4ever :.

Venatoris..wat a word..wat a camp..n how it cud actually unite different individuals 4 one cause..Verily, Allah s.w.t is great and Alhamdulillah, we have done this wif the niat of doing it 4 HIS cause...
 
i recall back the first moment..how i actually got into the foc comm itself..i still remember how bro hafiz and abu persuaded me and encouraged me to accept the post...although i felt i was inexperienced and as such incapable..they carried me on..guiding me where they felt appropriate..n helpin me in many ways..
 
n then exams came..everyone paused..took a break..studied like mad..n after it..felt so exhausted that we took some time jus 2 get going..n when we did..we felt so overwhelmed that we started doing things we shudnt do..conflicts..pointless arguments..other priorities..
 
it was a point of time..when i felt so down..so detached that i wanted 2 break down..i argued wif certain programmers of mine..n i crossed the line..a line that divided colleagues n frens..
 
But Allah s.w.t is great..HIS guidance comes to those who believed in HIM..And Alhamdulillah, by HIS greater plans..i went 4 itqan..
 
n there i felt..that sumthin needed 2 b done..sumhow,sumwhere..things needed 2 b cleared up..tears needed 2 b shed 4 a realisation..a realisation that we r going 4 a greater cause..not 4 our personal reasons alone..
 
i made a few ppl cry..bec i felt it necessary that certain things be cleared up out of the open..jus 2 get things rite..n i dun regret it still now..03 june.. i still remember
 
N i was glad that we got werking again..4 a while..those who went 4 itqan understood wat needed 2 b done..n 4 that reason, i was glad..
 
But then..all tests come from HIM ..and verily, HE knows wat is best 4 me..
 
i quarrelled wif a fren of mine..over certain ideals that needed to b straightened..a close fren in fact..my classmate in my first sem..and it came 2 a point..whereby, i felt down again..n had 2 reaffirm miself about the reasons y i join this camp..n actually get this things done..
 
On another note..4 a period of time..i had to argue wif those above me..jus 2 let my programmers b entitled to wat they wanna do..their creativity n such..their opinions..n at sum times, i jus had to use harsh words to make them know that i was really standing my line.....n i wasnt letting go..
 
it was hard 4 me on both notes..but i had 2 do wat i had 2 do..n i felt very bad about it..
 
but after a while, i understood y it had 2 happen this way..i had 2 realise that the world wasnt ideal..that choosing n living the rite path wasnt easy..Rasulullah s.a.w had more challenges than this..yet he managed 2 get thru..wat abt me?
 
it was then that i walked on..beleiving that my niat wud carry me thru..n Alhamdulillah it carried me enuff till day 0...n now..the camp proper..