.: U cant see past the choices you dont understand :.

heh..taking some time out from fyp lab at BMERC(biomed engineering research centre) which is at research techno plaza.

i caught a glimpse of matrix reloaded b4 gonig back to hall on sat..during the exchange between the oracle and neo..sthin struck me den wen neo asks the oracle regarding what does he have to do now dat he has made the choice..and the oracle was saying "u mus understand why u made that choice now neo..cause u can only see past the choices you understand"

d thing dat struck me was d phrase of course..i kinda feel unsure now on what is gonna come up for me during these upcoming years now that Im gonna come to my end of my university life at NTU..

back in year 1..i made d choice of bioengineering..do i understand y i made d choice den? mebbe not 100%..thought back then it was a grwoing field but didnt realise that research fields like dis one needed oneself to realli develop and study till PhD and beyond..i kinda like studying the new areas but to go all d way is sthin dat im unsure of miself la..but now it seems that the option of contiuing my field of study is the only way that i can survive in dis field..make or break huh? sheesh..i dun wanna even think of the "wat if i dont" option now..fyp and studies oso not dat stable now..hmmz

role as khalifatullah..to stop now jus to take care of one's own desires n ambitions? or to continue contributin to the muslim community as i have before but in other areas? or to make it big like Zaqy or the other malay MPs so that i wud have a bigger say and a greater impact on wat i wish to do for the community? so many options huh?

other stuff..hmm..alhamdulillah..d time i have now i was able to spend more time wif my family during weekends..i tink mum's glad dat she has finally got her son back..bec she's been saying that i've been spending way too much time in her opinion doing all of this..but still stayin in hall though..bec i noe i cant study at home..he he..

other den that..deres another choice i made dat im not sure whether its d right or wrong one as of yet..but nvm, i jus pray that Allah swt guides me in all i do..n hope..in faith..

Peace out..

*looking 4ward to ramadhan*(smiles)