.: Grant me peace in the sanctuary of my heart :.

past few days have been kinda moody..heh..not sure whether its jus the weather or its jus me..

coming back from a majlis tahlil invited by a bro made me think abt a lot of things..the company of frens that i am with now..and how much i had begin to treasure them over the past few years in campus..thru all the events and occasions spent together..its nice to noe such sahabats are still ard nowadaes..

d reason i was perhaps feelin so thankful..was d fact that while i've grown to noe new ppl while in campus..i began to feel dat i was kinda letting go of my old ones..we still try to make an effort to meet every few holidays that we have..but sumhow i tink i grew out of those times..or mebbe things jus dun seem dat familiar animore..

to be honest..one yr ago, sthin happened to me dat made me rethink on a lotta things in mi life..overworrying as usual..but a yr ago @dis point of time, mebbe i was too naive, too trusting of others..n wen u do so, wen such trust is instead taken advantage of/misplaced..den i suppose u'd hurt more right..

unfortunately or fortunately..such an incident has made me more wary of ppl..more careful u might say..once bitten, twice shy right? but as a result, u realise that u cant open up to ppl easily animore..n stimes it jus destroys u wen u keep a lotta things inside..

u grow insecure..unsure of commitment..unsure of trust..unsure of how much u are ready to give..afraid to be shortchanged again..guess dat was wat i felt these past few days..

heh..anw, ystday was nice..mum came along and we had a gd talk on a lotta things till 4 am in d morning..heh..nice bec being wif dose who care for u make u feel special as well..nice askin mum how i was like wen i was younger..n wen times were much more simpler den dey are now..away frm d responsibilities of d world..skewl, social life, religion etc..and most imptly, it gave me a sanctuary, be it a temporary one for me to snuggle in away from the complications of myself..

luv mum..no 1 woman in my life..

anw, enuff of being mushy2..results are gonna come out soon this wk..personally, im one of dose ppl who wud rather d results fellin over n fast enuff aye? heh..but i do noe a lotta mi frens who confirm seram sejok wen dey noe exams are out..lol..but seriously, i'd rather take a few more modules than fyp..which is seriously becomin more n more trying..

cobaan...

heh..n to cap it off, i got a letter from a company that was dealing in the financial sector and is on the lookout on fresh graduates to join it..and i didnt even remember of sending my name to this company..sheesh..so coincidence or a sign?

heh..entah la..nvrtheless..looking to the Almighty for Guidance in many matters of mi life..

Peace out.. :)