.: A moment of silent happiness and peace in grace :.

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many things have flowed thru mi mind lately..matters of d past, present and d future..but ALhamdulillah, all in all, i find miself in better condition than i was b4..n i thank Allah swt for granting me the company of such brothers n sisters who nvr fail to remind me to continually seek the Path n blive-ing in miself that Allah will nvr abandon one who wishes so much to serve HIM..

wen all was said n done today..it was like d aftermath of a movie set..u noe..those kinda clips dey show wen a season of a series is done..n i cudnt help but have this nostalgic feelin that we were those ppl who have gone thru this all this while..n it seems to come to an end...nostalgic for i remember wen i first started this course, the individual expressions n willingness to serve the ummah in wateva we cud..back den

1 yr on..looking at d empty hall jus now..i jus felt all of those coming back to me..our aspirations..our joy..our tears for the sake of Allah..to all of them, we mite not have been the best exco ever..but wen all is said n done, we were BRAVE enuff to assume responsbilities wen there was no one left to carry on dat torch..despite our inexperiences..despite our faults..despite many things more..the courage to move on despite the worst odds, n ppl who fall along d way....we might not end w/the 15 of us..but ultimately we tried..

given a choice..n condition..i wud want to end my tenure as well..i value u all so much n all that u have helped me become who i am today..the unwavering support by some, the continous jihad that we share in dis path..

but such is Allah's will on me..dat i need to carry on..watch as u all go away, not to abandon me but to allow others to learn..n since d 4th syura till now, it has come to a point where i continually question miself on mi role in HIS plans..wat i needed to do to earn HIS Love..

n im thankful to Allah swt of the answers I have obtained in d shape of my frens..past,present n future..

the past has reminded me of the things that i need to live up to and more..the present:of the person i have become and grown into aft 2 yrs,a need to tawakkal that Allah will nvr abandon a servant who sincerely seeks HIS path..the future: the person i will have to be..

but wen all is said n done, i did realise d need for me to get out of mi shell again..for a greater Purpose..an answer that was staring at me all along..but i cud onli realise it in d past few daes..Wallahu'alam..All at its own gd time..

My silent prayer to all of us..present n future..

May Allah give u
A rainbow for every storm,
A friend for every path u embark,
A smile for every tear,
A blessing for every trial,
A sweet song for every sorrow,
and an answer for every prayer...Aameen

Ya Allah, guide me as u have guided Saiyidina Umar r.a..
as u got him out of darkness as u have done w/me all this while..
N grant me strength..As i seek mine..
A renewal of heart i need..to embark on this path once again..