d start of d week has alwaes agreed w/me..dat was sthin i realised from lookin at my timetable in sch..though i usualli get mi share of most periods on mon..i realise i dun dread it cos the classes i get are manageable for my standards..usualli no migraine/headache on at the start of d week although i haf to admit that i'm a victim of "i dun wanna sleep on sunday night cos i gotta work the next day" syndrome..yup..pretty long name huh? if u've a better name for d syndrome..u tell me k? lol
all nice till mid-wk came..
my skin infection came haunting me again..wen i was tryin to get miself fit over badmminton..i remember d itch was so bad dat almost mi whole face went red..n i had to go to polyclinic d nxt day to ask for a referral to the national skin centre..
den came thurs..which has alwaes been a "cekik darah sampai darah tinggi naik to d sky" day for me..had a practical class wif mi 3E4..long story short..crappy day..crappy way to end mi day(Cos it was mi 2 last periods of a long day..oftwhich i had a 3 hr marathon of periods at one shot..so dragggy day)..i ended d day having to clear up the mess in d lab after mi irresponsible students..n although i told miself repeatedly that i had to punish dose who crossed the line..i found dat i jus cudnt do it cos of my poor class management and d fact that i cudnt punish all of dem fairly since there were too many of dem..n dat i cudnt keep track of all of dem..
n of cos..me being who i am..felt depressed wen i got home..to a point dat i resolved dat on the very nxt day, i wud hand in mi resignation form..n leave by the mar holidays although i'd haf to fork out d $$ since i didnt give a full month's notice..n i went ard applyin for other jobs of course..n decided to take a leap of faith cos i realli wealli cudnt stand it animore..gave up on teaching..n naturally, down d drain mi self-worth went..
of cos, Allah swt is All-Wise, Most Gracious and Merciful..n HE hears d prayers of all of us..
right on dat night itself..i got an e-mail dat my request for a transfer to a pri sch got approved..oftwhich i rem not putting much hopes on it cos i had heard ard dat it was hard to get such a transfer..n i felt relieved cos it meant that not all mi options were closed..n dat i wasnt forced into any option strictly..n thankful for dat alhamdulillah..now i guess d oni issue is whether mi sch wud want to release me by term 1..so dat i can at least taste a term in pri sch b4 decidin whether teachin is realli for me or nt..
provided my P lets me go despite d lack of sci teachers in mi sch..
Pray pray pray..
P.S :
jus realised dat out of all d job applications i submitted since jan, i oni got a reply from one, which is as an administration manager.Aft submission of an essay, terus diam.
There was oni another approval as a financial services consultant but i decided aft a while dat i didnt wanna involve miself in a murky2 area..n when d working hrs are seriously long n demanding..
mebbe Allah swt is tryin to tell me sthin..heh
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